Juz received 9 emails from Anipike, saying that my links have been accepted. This is DA PLACE to have your links posted if you wanna get lotsa traffic. It is by far the best and most popular and frequently updated anime sites in the web getting lotsa awards. They have so many damn links and since my pages get accepted my site visits show up by nearly over 50 or so. In juz one day's work. it's like WOW.
Hahahaha funny part is because of how lousy geocities' transfer data is and also because of the sudden surge of visitors, my site was temporarily disable for an hour hahaha i myself can't see my own website. geez.

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sadness...
loneliness...
regrets....
disappointments..
how could it be that such feelings shld come to me at such an hour...
on such short notice...
knowing what shld not have been known..
told what shld not have been told..
for my love forsakes me..
i am but an unwanted being so be gone with my existence for i am unfit to live..
more than once i've felt such feelings..

others live for the sake of me but oh unfortunate me..
i wished for death because of thee...

...death is but homecoming to me...

Wednesday Stuff
Whoo! today was an awesome day. I had one of my best days hanging out with people. really cool people not in the sense that they are stylish or wadsoever but the fact that i could feel at ease and jus chat n laugh. it has been awhile since i had such an experience. basically i was supposed to meet up with wilfred to go to suntec's tower records to check out the SAKURA cd i want. we first met up at 3 at city hall mrt stn. then we walked dwn the citilink to suntec which was quite enjoyable somehow lolz and he met his cousin there. funny thing was he didn't recognize her till she stared at him straight in the face. very tanned girl. blonde streaked hair. heard she's onli a year younger than wilfred. when we reached suntec, we walked down and passed by the snack store which i love to go to get some fishballs with lotsa lotsa lotsa chilli cos it tastes so damn gd i tell u. i juz love it. it's about a dollar per stick for three fishballs. yeah ok back to the story. then we got up to the tower records, checked out some cd covers..looked ard commenting on crap shit like wah she so pretty... ee her mouth so big etc lolz then bought my cd with nets and left to go dwn to bk to hav a drink. met one of the uncles whom i worked with called uncle pang. we ordered a coke and i opened up my cd, admiring it hehehe *i've yet to open it*

ok then actually, according to plan we were supposed to go to esplanade since i havent been there before but we didn't. instead, we met up with meimei cos wilfred called her up and we're supposed to meet her at about 5.30 with wei ting, her bf. he was my ex-colleague. some new guy when i left. before ting wei came, i saw some of mei's frenz whom i've met before last time during a barbeque. wil had a little chat with ting wei and said that the guy is rather honest and will be good for meimei. onli thing is he is a little quiet. hm... we went to kino awhile.... u noe, check out some bks and stuff before heading to taka's yoshinoya to makan. while we were eating fred received this call from Alex, his hairstylist friend, who also dislikes terry(masaki) hehehe gd, who said he was comin over too. he wanna eat hahaha.. he appeared realli cheery today and was very talkative. i seldom chat up with him but he's gd to chat with. quite gd atmosphere. lolz he had a haircut too. nicer style.

when we finish eating, fred n alex went out to smoke while we stood by the side of the pillars n saw some kids playing skateboard n trying to pull off some stunts by skating dwn a flight of steps. amazingly enuff, meimei quit smoking already. power of love huh? *winks* hahaha... gd for her anyway. we went on to the starbucks outside california something building.. the body building one and chilled off there. had a very very good chat there. rather flowing and shared some jokes, experiences... some stories about a past fight alex and wil had with some other ppl.... etc quite enjoyable actually. it's like, there were not airs, no restrictions, juz plain chilling out and some good chats. it has been quite awhile since i had such a good chat outside, moreover i'm not exactly v close to alex and ting wei but it's pretty cool cos basically alex and wil is very talkative. and meimei is very friendly so we managed to chat up. i think we sat there for like.... 2 hours? or mebbe more i don't know hahaha but soon we left of course and alex n wil sorta went the same direction, to the back of sommerset to catch their bus while me n meimei took the same bus 16 home. we used to do that when we're working at bk last time. had some chat with meimei on the bus and she's a very good girl lah. pays attention and show's respect when someone talks. how to say, responsive lah. lolz anyway, that was about it. onli thing is when i returned home, dad was kinda drunk and eating some stuff before going to bed. he juz ate halfway and got up, got into the rm, and slept! i tot he was coming back out but he didn't. wah kao. lolz pai kia. juz leave the plate there lidat. mama oso another pai kia. now 2.01am so late liao still not home. play mahjong until forget to come home oredi. lolz`

i gotta meet up with jeremy n shaikha to get the dry items tomorrow.... heheh hopefully the shop is open if not i faint. cos it's labour day.

did i ever tell u i love watching CSI? well i do. haha big time too! i used to sit infrnt of the tv in the middle of the night checking out forensic science crime scene investigation process on discovery channel hahaha

Tuesday Stuff
woo whee! am watching The Exorcist II - The Heretic right now.freaky freaky.... hm although the real scary part ain't out yet but i already had wilfred n sano stand by next to me (on the phone n msn) to scream at hahahaha..

alrite...end of movie. tot it's supposed to scary like the previous one end up not. kinda stupid actually.... hm waste my time staying home. shld've gone over to wilfred's place instead hahhaha..

i wanna go watch XMEN two haha.. am gonna go dwn to suntec city, tower records to check out some cd before going to esplanade to hav a look. if time allows, mebbe i'll go wilfred's hse. can't believe until now i haven't been to esplanade. hahaha i'm sucha lagger. mum bought pineapple rice for me to eat juz now..very tasty... and she also bought me tom yam soup. dad bought uncle toby's muesli bar. strawberry and blue berry flavour! *smack lips*

was havin fun playing Yahoo! pools with mizoe until she suddenly disappeared. i wonder how come. @_@
hmmm right now i'm tryin to figure out what show is on the tv... something to do with kidnapping of a little child on christmas night. sad case

this thurs or fri me n two of my frenz, jere n shaikha will be going dwn to buy the dry items from bedok interchange and sat evening for the food items. and MONDAY WE'LL HAV OUR BBQ YEAH! can't wait ahaha am gonna stay over at wilfred's hse for two days or so.. so u guys know wad to say huh? thanks!!! *kiss all* hehehehe

	Hehehehe (^o^) I'm actually not quite supposed to do this... basically i uploaded some files on to angelfire.com and then stole the pictures to put here. hmm wad if i get caught? lolz oh well... .. J ..

It's amazing how people know each other. the other day i was pondering about how me n jeremy got to know each other. basically we ended up the same class for my first year and he was juz some scruffy lookin guy (his hair v long n messy) before havin cropped his hair and be like now. (short hair). basically he looks like a chipmunk now. LOL. i think he'll fry me if he sees this. aniwae, he is the most dramatic guy i've ever seen but it's funnie for course... irritating at times though.. ( -_-")

aniwae, so coincidentally, he lives near me and even more surprising, we take the same bus to school. that's how we managed to chat up more. then we went on to become group members for our year one projects. then again, duno gd or bad lah hahaha but then we manage to bcome year two classmates again. at first i was groaning. hahahaha then we got to know each other better and shaikha too cos she also same class... and the three of us were very close in a way when we talk, cos can click yah. then there was terry. not the irritating terry of wilfred but my classmate terry. a christian. a guy who likes to crack lame jokes lolz but it's farnie still and he's smart lah. EQ good and very good talker n presenter. lolz then at first we didn't like him alot cos basically he like to crack stupid jokes but another coincidence, he lives in eunos and takes the same bus as me n jeremy hahaha one more person in our trip to sch. we got to know him better bcos of dat and now, i can say we're pretty alrite frenz. ^____^

juz plain amazing.
and now, i have this new visitor to my blog where the both of us are complete strangers. lolz yet we managed to come into contact and had each of our blog address added into our collection. ^___^ she somehow managed to click click click and link and watever and finally come to my blog. CuTe. ^__^ added her to my blog add collections hahaha....

Check out the bottom left of this page, Click Here, n check out that tiny little tv set i added. IT'S SO CUTE!! i can't wait to find a picture hosting site to let me add that into my blog. it's so darn cute.

i feel as if i have a load off my chest. finally i was able to tell my mum about wilfred totally. finally there were no need for lies. finally, she seemed to accept him. i've waited one and a half years juz to allow her to slowly accept the fact that i have a bf and the constant fear with regards to wilfred's qualifications plague me like a nightmare that wouldn't leave. finally i was able to come clean.

for a mum with a daughter in her first r/s, i would say my mum is exceptionally understanding so much so that i am amazed. she have never objected even once for me to be in a r/s nor have she kicked up any fuss of any kind. perhaps once in awhile her sharp questioning scares me, leaving me wondering how she figured out where i went or wad we did. she said, the most impt wilfred needs is at least, get an O level cert. cos w/o dat, he can't even apply for a hse. to b able to start a family and live a life together, for a basic we nid a home and wilfred nids to be financially stable at least, for a home to call our own. the very fact that she actually mentioned "mebbe next time u n him want to have a home, at least must be joint acc..." duno y but this line sets me to relief. somehow i feel a sense of acceptance.. haha..

Saturday Stuff
suddenly remembered about yesterday where i added alot of ppl to chat up on one msn window haha there was kor.. me... sano, twit and mizoe... quite fun.
my stupid fren made me dl some msn plus thingy which i duno wad gd does it make and somehow it triggered some error in my msn. sianz. did pretty much nothing today except revamping my website through wilfred's computer. seems like geocities likes his comp more than mine. loads very smoothly. *gives the eyebrow*

yesterday nite wilfred asked me what was my reason for not wanting terry to come for the BBQ. told him exactly the reason y. good thing he accepted it altho he said he'll still ask aniwae bcos they are best frenz. oh well. hmmm... my muscles are aching damn i feel like some ah mah with rumethism...or however u spell it. was chatting up with shaikha about the bbq. she might be bringing her bf along. *yikes*

sano sent me this reallie cute picture of his. haha am waiting for more.

suddenly my mind blanks out and i forgot wad i wanna write hahaha aniwae i think i'm going crazy with eggs. been eating alot of them lately. not cos i love them so much but cos i keep cooking for wilfred and also experimenting the various way i can cook the egg. hahahaha was frying scrambled eggs mix with rice to make into some sort of a fried rice.

currently, i'm done with the re-designing of my website.

Re-designed Pages:
1. Introduction Page
2. Main Page
3. Gallery 2
4. About Me Page
5. Updates
6. Saiyuki Gallery

Friday Stuff
went to wilfred's house as usual. but before that i was spending quite sometime using the internet to revamp my webbie. wanna make it more attractive haha... aniway now holiday, if dun do now oso no chance. nothing much special except one problem. Oh shucks....suddenly lightning and rain. mad weather. alrite yeah i was saying, nothing special but one prob which is the loading speed. nothing to do with my internet i think but the programme juz keeps hanging at a certain pt of time therefore it's darn time consuming for me to do my website.

went to wilfred's house alittle late today. at about 4 plus. went back to his house where i fried some egg and cooked maggi for him. was trying out a new way to cook eggs and also i dipped some bread into the egg and fried it. turned out pretty tasty hahaha... was happily using fred's comp to do my website again cos somehow i encounter no prob doing my stuff over his computer. only till about late evening did i hear frm fred dat terry is coming over. frankly speaking, it spoilt my mood alittle. i used to be alrite with him and i'm still alrite with him but juz recently i hav this growing dislike to be ard him. mebbe i juz can't stand his attitude and mannerism and the stupid things he say. anyway, all was peaceful when we walked over to the nasi lemak stall to eat as usual.....UNTIL wilfred said the worst thing ever.

inviting terry to my bbq.

i was so damn pissed off. the last thing i want is for terry to come n spoil my mood. if i hear even the slightest complaint from him, i'm gonna so blow up alrite. it was supposed to be juz a small gathering amongst frenz and some of my classmates. geez. wassup with wilfred!?

right now it's raining pretty heavily. juz now over in wilfred's hse when terry was in, i was left alone in the living room for as long as half n hour. he totally didn't come out to even look or ask abt me. fuck man. then the stupid door rang and i had this woman who was fuckin rude. alrite not very very rude lah but i juz not happie ya? she was askin for melvin. fred's bro. apparently mel's not at home and she was rambling on talking about some documents as if i shld noe so i called for wilfred. i see a guy hopping ard at the back. he's in bad shape man. his right leg was in cast, some bad case of broken knee cap and the front of his hair was shaven off with a few stitches visible. he was the guy whom melvin claimed to have knocked down during a car accident. but the real situation was that some stupid girl banged the guy dwn and mel's taking the rap. voluntarily. worse, the girl ain't his girlfriend. he told wil, he's folks and everybody else that HE was the one who banged the guy dwn when he did not and the guy was aware of whom actually knocked into him. wonder wassup with melvin. *sigh* aniwae it's none of my biz. that woman thought i was fred's sis and terry was his brother or something. they wanted to smoke and had no ashtray and wilfred had to offer them an ashtray, which SO happens to be the one i made and gave to wilfred as our annivasary present. damnit.

Revamped finish my website's main page (part 1). Gimme ur comments k?
INTRO PAGE

juz tried out the tagboard honggy hav. currently having a test run lolz` somehow i'm still rather attached to my shoutbox so i'm not deleting it yet. you guys can post it anywhere u want yeah?

Just redid the whole introduction page of my comic website. it used to be dark coloured, so on and so forth right? well, this is a total change but it's refreshing n i love it alot. juz had the idea striking me in the middle of the night. gimme ur comments on wad u think of it alrite? Here's the link.
Introduction Page

stupid counter was abit cocked up today. usually it's programmed to ignore my own hits at my hse comp so dat when i update my blog and checks my blog again it doesn't count my visits. now no matter wad i do, it juz keeps counting my visits and worse off, the pages itself loads so damn slowly. can't even load it from wilfred's comp. damnit.

after wilfred and i finished activating and setting up the internet connection and modem and everything else in my computer, i took a bath and soon the both of us left my hse at about 4:00PM. we walked over to bengawan solo to check out the cake that could be redeemed to see how big it is. mum gave it to me, it's a wedding card that allows us to redeem a walnut cake. hehehez. i like walnut. but we decided not to collect it today cos it's kinda big so we walked over to the bus stop to take a bus down to orchard. we're meeting terry there. we were supposed to meet him at about 4:30 or so and we weren't late but for ONCE, terry was early and already complaining non-stop. as usual, he kept calling wilfred's hp while we were on the phone and bugged wilfred, complaining why wilfred's "late" when we're not. he should check on he's own behaviour first before complaining. he's alwayz the one making ppl wait and if u're thinking 5 - 30 minutes u're wrong. it usually counts by HOURS. once he made us wait for nearly five damn hours.

anyway, we dropped off at the stop behind taka and walked over to lucky plaza. they were supposed to go play pool. i juz tagged along cos fred wanted me to. while they were smoking outside hang ten of lucky plaza, we saw michelle chia walk past below. damn sexy and pretty. even from backview hahaha her waist very slim. she was with a friend and did not attempt to disguise herself even to the slightest bit. infact she was very pretty and juz walked on down the street in confident strides.

after fred they all played their pool we went down to the basement cos terry wanted to eat. he takes very very VEEERY long to eat his meals. every time it'll take what seems like an HOUR for him to finish just half of he's meal and he juz spent $200 something (he's dad pay) on a pair of nike shoe. spoilt man i tell u. when he's out to work he'll suffer big time. god bless him. anyway after he eat finish cos me n fred kinda broke so we went over to yoshinoya to have that $3 beef bowl meal. hehe then walked heeren to look around. i went into basic beauty to check out some of the nail art they offered cos veron sorta told me she got hers there. i found them rather pretty and it cos about $9.00 not for juz 10 fingers gone kind but more like u're own choice to put how mani of the designs. hard to explain. u gotta see it to know haha.. when we were done with heeren and it was quite late already, we walked over to starbucks to have a seat and relax. talked n sat there for quite awhile till terry left and me n wilfred stayed behind for awhile more. we chatted over some topics like terry and his kinda thinking which is abit immature and stuff lidat, we went on talking about a person's personality and country's culture with regards to genetical formation, talked about wilfred and future plans, and i made a bet with him to hav a reward he wants in exchange for him getting a diploma.

The Requirements:

• He must get his 'O' Level qualification


• He must finish he's poly and get a diploma

Time Limit: not specified.

Reward:To and fro tix to England to watch a match in Old Trafford.

not sure if i said the wrong thing cos i juz merely said that if i were to tempt him with rewards to spur his motivation i wouldn't be so stupid as to give him a small present for every test he pass but one big one at the completion of a journey. then he got very enthusiastic and decides to filter out the part where i said 'for example' and say that if he gets those qualifications, i give him the tix. oh well, if he can get those qualifications, this 'prize' is damn worth it. anway i'll be working for years by then. shouldn't be too bad.

our new webcam pics. Click Here

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!
FINALLY! *hehehehehehe* Me back online!!!! nyahahahahhaa....
*goes crazy*
everything goes well,
fred helped me a whole lot with the modem activation and everything
onli prob is that i can't auto-connect
damns. mean i hav to key my password every single time i wanna go onlne.
called up the technician and wilfred was on the phone talking to "her"
and talked so much as if they were friends. =__="
experience from a ex-telemarketeer haha.. fred was one last time.
alritey then me go do some other stuff, will be back to blogging frenzy pretty soon. *WhOo!*
this definitely revived my enthusiasm in blogging.
life without internet is so boring. especially when i dun hav games in my comp haha
and worse, my sims, this time round hav my neighbour stuck in my room hahahaha

tick tock tick tock...

i'm awaiting wilfred's arrival at my hse to help me with my modem.
*sobz* i can't use singnet for 3 days!!!!! *waaaaaaaaaah*

mothers are all scary people.
smart mothers are even more scary.
i mentioned that tml fred will be comin over to help me with my modem right?
juz incase it clashes with the time my folks come home,
i MERELY asked mum wad time dad'll be home.
that was all.
soon after i rushed to the toilet to pee.
did not mention about who's gonna come n help me do in detail nor did i further question her about the time she'll be back home tml.
but guess wad?
while i was in the loo halfway i hear my mum's voice outside talkin to me.
"tml the one who come n help is ur bf ar?"

... ...

she psychic ar!?

i'm kinda confused right now although i seriously should be very happy. cos finally, wilfred have goals he wanna acheive in life and i ought to be glad as all that i've tried paid off well and finally i hear personally from him that he wants not only to get an O level certification during his NS but also to go to a poly after his NS. (it's possible) he regret for getting out of sch when he wasn't supposed and ready to and got into working life when he shouldn't be and ain't prepared for. so now he wanna earn them back. finally he have the drive to move on with his life and we're gonna have a different experience in our relationship even when he's in NS because till then i'll be on attachment and we'll both be paid and more able to do things and what we'll be doing will create more memories and fun than now. hopefully, life would be better. you may then think i should be damn thrilled about it. yes i am, but then again, i'll be so damn old when he's out of poly. cos i ain't younger than him and by the time he's out of poly (if possible) he'll be ard 25 years of age and me? a year older of course. that's like soooooo old and guys of that age should already more or less have a stable sort of job but he'll onli be a freshie. it gives me the jitters and i can't help but feel edgy about it... and i'm kinda prejudice abt late marriages especially after 28 for some strange reason. i may be thinking too far right now but it's gd to plan ahead. that's my habit anyway, to prepare for the worst.

btw, tml onwards i'll be taking out my starhub maxonline to return so dat i can cancel my line and activate my broadband on wednesday which means i can't access to the internet for three days! i'm gonna die..... hahaha...feel like a comp geek now. my hotmail is gonna be so so so damn overloaded. i'll be going dwn to MUJI tml to get the organizer to re-write my accounts tml. that old bk's pages are already fallin out. darn.

just did some accounting, counting all the money i stashed somewhere to save up. i even kept my ang pow money (w/o spending even a cent of it) chronologically. =_= my savings are getting less this year. stupid economic crisis that made my relatives stingy. compared to last year, excluding all other inflows this year, i actually had about 4 hundred over dollars less. damnit. family cashflow haven't been too good of late having me to pay my own bills nowadays. *grumbles* parents are all cheaterbugs. say will 'replenish' me end up forget. ahhhhh nvm.. can't believe i kept a bk and did this accounting thing since 1998.. that makes me 15 year old then. wah kao.. so young start keeping track of savings already. i muz be nuts. hahahaha... can't believe myself sometimes. anyway, i went on over to MUJI to check out what kinda shop it is. end up alittle surprised cause at first i tot i was some japanese styled trendy shop. but erm.. it IS japanese styled but then it's selling items that are like pillows... bolsters... organizers.. clothes.. bowls.. etc of REALLY simple designs. so simple i can't believe it but then again it is because of it's simplicity that makes it rather unique and i was so damn tempted to buy quite a number of items. especially the organizers. i might go back there to get it and re-write my accounts cos the pages of the old bk are starting to fall out. but i'm kinda poor so we'll hav to see abt it hehez

me n fred went to IKEA to eat ice-cream and HE WUN LEMME EAT MUH HOT DOG!!! *sobz*
i was takin a nap in fred's rm.. hehe at 16 degrees!! *brrr* hehehe then after i think abt 2 hours fred came in n crept into the bed to slp next to me. his hands are so so so cold i squealed and squeezed myself to one corner, under the bolster hahahaha.. anyway i was kinda happy he came in and then i bounced about in the bed heehee...

and OH YA! i forgot. i fried egg again this time but i added cheese in this time round hehehehe.... the egg become more filled up and smelt better and somewhat sweeter cos of the cheese and it tasted soooooo yummy!!! hehehe fred gobbled the whole thing up. XD


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i'm in a song downloading frenzy.. and listening frenzy too.

overplayed song
Evanescence - Bring me to life.mp3

i can't explain why but this type of song jolts me to my senses. i absolutely love it and can't stop listening to it. another song i like is Evanascence's "whisper". haha..